Psalm 55:1-8, 23b

Listen to my prayer, O God,
do not ignore my plea;
hear me and anser me.
My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught
at the voice of the enemy,
at the stares of the wicked;
for they bring down suffering upon me
and revile me in their anger.

My heart is in anguish within me;
the terrors of death assail me.
Fear and trembling have beset me;
horror has overwhelmed me.
I said, "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest-
I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;
I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm.

...But as for me, I trust in you.

Don't be alarmed by this post. I feel a war going on in my heart and mind and I have just a taste of what David was feeling here. There are a few things in my life right now that the enemy is trying to tear me down with and steal my joy, but I will not let him. I will fear no evil because God is with me!

Spring Cleaning

It doesn't feel like spring today. We got a bunch of snow last night, and it's not above zero, but I still have a spring cleaning fever.

So far I've cleaned the back entryway, cleaned the bottom of the bookcase, done a ton of laundry, cleaned the upstairs bathroom, cleaned out one toy box and vacuumed the bottom, then cleaned out the other toy box and vacuumed it out. I think I have all the toys down to one toy box. I just have to weed a few more out, and then we'll be good. The girls helped me move a BUNCH more toys up the their rooms and they were very happy about it. I started cleaning out the front entryway, and have also started cleaning the master bedroom.

I didn't do all of this today, but this is what my spring cleaning has produced so far. I've very proud of what I've been able to do so far, and I can't wait to do more. The one job I'm dreading more than others is cleaning out the fridge. It's very sticky in there and I hate that job! Oh well, I gotta do what I gotta do!

God is in Control!

Edit: Samantha got sick yesterday. Throwing up every time she tried to eat something. So we ended up having to cancel lunch. Trevor and I also have colds of some sort. Not fun... but I have been able to get a lot done on this easy Sunday.

We have been invited to someone's house for lunch on Sunday. This hasn't happened in a while. I'm excited! But also hesitant... I am concerned. My girls have allergies, and going to someone's house for lunch is stepping WAY out of my comfort zone.

I did inform the lady that the girls have allergies, and she was super good about it. But I have a hard time trusting other people with the safety of my children. I will be there... so it's not like I won't have control over what's going into their mouths. It's still just a big fear area for me. Brooklyn puffed up like a balloon when she was only little and I never want to experience that again.

Back to trusting... it's not really the people I have to trust at all, is it? God is in control. GOD is in control! Not even me! I can watch everything that goes into their mouths and still, GOD is in control! Even if they do have a reaction, God is still in control! And He works for the good of those who love Him and have been called according to HIS purposes.

I believe that God wants us to bring our fears to Him, and so, for the next few days I will be covering this Sunday in prayer. That God will be in control, that I will be able to give my fear to Him, that the girls will not have reactions, but that ultimately, GOD's will will be done!