Be content

After being sick all week I've started to get into cleaning mode for our guests. I have an old youth leader of mine who I haven't seen in probably 10 years and who has been in Africa working with SP for a year coming to see us next week. And then a few days later my parents will be arriving. I'm starting to get excited and nervous and wanting my house to be perfect. I really want to go rack up a credit card bill and get a new bed, although I am at peace with not having a new one for my guests, doors for my bookshelves, sod for the front lawn (it's not as nice as I thought it would be). I know this is not the answer. And I know that everyone will accept me and my house as it is, but there's something in me that wants it to be perfect. Since we are trying hard not to put anything on our credit cards, it's really hard for me to not buy this and that that would make me feel better about my house.

Then I just have to shake my head and be happy that I have a house. It doesn't have to be perfect. And I could spend $10000 and still be wishing I had a bigger kitchen or that the basement was redone. It's not going to happen.

Here's what's important. God is working in my life. He cares about me. This past week with being sick and mentally attacked I felt like I was in a valley. Not a memorable one, but a valley none-the-less. Then Saturday morning I wake up and am starting to feel better and God gives me a huge blessing through someone that is constantly letting God use her to bless others. I know it was God because I hadn't even talk to this person about a want that I had and wasn't able to fill on my own. I cried for 10 minutes. Just knowing that God loves me that much that he cares about the things that I care about.

Another huge answered prayer is that the girls haven't had a hive in months. This is something that has constantly been in my prayers. I've had fears over their spots, but they haven't had any real reactions. Praise the Lord for He is good! His love indures forever!