And the Quarterback is toast...

I have temporarily put on hold the cleaning on my storage space. I have noticed lately that our bed just isn't cutting it. I haven't had a good night sleep in I don't know how long. Trevor and I both slept well at Mom and Dad's and when we got home, I started not sleeping well again, and Trevor's back started hurting. Plus, before we got married, the mattress we have was my in-laws guest bed, so it's at least 10 years old. So we decided we needed to look at getting a new bed. On Sunday we got the flyer for The Br.icks 3 day sale and they had their best mattress set on for 50% off! How can you get a better deal than that?? So, we decided to go for it. We got a King since we keep elbowing each other and we have always wanted one. I am so excited! We get it around the 14th. Which is great because that will give me time to clean out our room.

Our room is a horrible mess. It always is. Even after I spend a week cleaning it, it goes back to being a mess fairly quickly. It isn't a priority for me. No one sees our room. I try and concentrate on the areas people see and that's really all I have time for. Our room ends up being a dumping ground. Not good, but I'm organized enough for it to be anything else. Someday it will be a place that I can go and relax.. but right now, it isn't.

Also, this later date give me time to find some bed sheets. I want some really nice ones, so I cashed in some airmiles and will go shopping as soon as my GC come.

I finished some mittens that I knitted over the weekend. I was so happy once I figured it out and got some help from a friend!! You know who you are! They are great and I want to knit some for everyone! But, now I'm making an Afghan and then Brooklyn wants me to make a blanket for her ducky.. and Mingo the Fingo (who is a flamingo).

Huge praise report! After taking a break from potty training we got back at it today. I put some panties on Sammy and this morning around 11, I asked her to go sit on the potty and she did. She sat there for about 10min and said, "I did it Mommy. I did it!" I was like... huh? I checked and she peed! YAHOO! She had a pullup on during her nap, and didn't use it!! And she didn't have one accident today! What a big girl. I couldn't believe it! I'm so proud of her.

Rebecca's vocabulary is really building. Here's a list of the words she says. Baba (for Grandpa, and Grandma), Hi, Hello, Up, Help, Please, More, Mommy, Daddy, and No. That's all I can think of for now. It seems like more. She copies quite a bit, but these are her regular words. She'll say "blast off" when prompted in a song.

Brooklyn is getting so big! She's starting to consciously ask for something in a very polite manner. It's so sweet. Her and Samantha are best friends and it's so great! I have such amazing girls. I am so blessed.

BTW, my title has nothing to do with my post. I just think it's funny.

Prayer

I was just thinking about this and I have a lot of people in my life asking for prayer. How am I going to remember to pray for all these people? Well, I know I can write it down, and also let the Holy Spirit lead me in my prayer life. But then, I realized that it really is a huge blessing for me. God has put all these people that love Him and know that looking to Him is the best way to live their lives in my life. Again, I am SO blessed!

Be content

After being sick all week I've started to get into cleaning mode for our guests. I have an old youth leader of mine who I haven't seen in probably 10 years and who has been in Africa working with SP for a year coming to see us next week. And then a few days later my parents will be arriving. I'm starting to get excited and nervous and wanting my house to be perfect. I really want to go rack up a credit card bill and get a new bed, although I am at peace with not having a new one for my guests, doors for my bookshelves, sod for the front lawn (it's not as nice as I thought it would be). I know this is not the answer. And I know that everyone will accept me and my house as it is, but there's something in me that wants it to be perfect. Since we are trying hard not to put anything on our credit cards, it's really hard for me to not buy this and that that would make me feel better about my house.

Then I just have to shake my head and be happy that I have a house. It doesn't have to be perfect. And I could spend $10000 and still be wishing I had a bigger kitchen or that the basement was redone. It's not going to happen.

Here's what's important. God is working in my life. He cares about me. This past week with being sick and mentally attacked I felt like I was in a valley. Not a memorable one, but a valley none-the-less. Then Saturday morning I wake up and am starting to feel better and God gives me a huge blessing through someone that is constantly letting God use her to bless others. I know it was God because I hadn't even talk to this person about a want that I had and wasn't able to fill on my own. I cried for 10 minutes. Just knowing that God loves me that much that he cares about the things that I care about.

Another huge answered prayer is that the girls haven't had a hive in months. This is something that has constantly been in my prayers. I've had fears over their spots, but they haven't had any real reactions. Praise the Lord for He is good! His love indures forever!

Blessings

Life as I know it is about to get busier. Today Rebecca climbed up onto the couch. More than once. I just have to be by her no matter where she goes. She's turning into such a little stinker. She hasn't stepped out yet, but I think she's saving it until Grandma and Grandpa come. She crawls up to me and uses me to stand up and then just stands there holding onto nothing. So cool!

Trevor and have been under a lot of mental attacks in the last couple of days. I'm really praying that God uses this to strengthen our faith. I can already see God working in Trevor and it makes me so happy. It makes everything we're going through worth it. God is so good!

I can't believe what a big girl Brooklyn is turning into. It's just so awesome to see. She is no longer a baby or even a toddler but she's a little girl!

Samantha is getting so big as well. She's saying sentences and growing up so fast.

I am so thankful for my family! I am so blessed to have three beautiful little girls, a loving husband and a wonderful home. I'm so thankful that we're all healthy and that I know God is taking care of us.

I listened to a song called "Who am I" by Casting Crowns today on Youtube. It's a really good one. Made me cry. Listen also to "Voice of Truth". That's a great one!

Praise the Lord

I will get to our trip when I have a minute, but right now I need to tell you about what happened the other day. On Sunday the 6th around 12pm I was putting my cross necklace on and Brooklyn started asking me about it. I told her that to me, it means that I'm a Christian and that Jesus lives in my heart. We contiuned on this conversation for a minute and I almost walked away from it, but I felt a leading from the Holy Spirit to contiune on with it. So, as we talked about what it meant to have Jesus in your heart and I told her that if she wanted to pray with me, that Jesus would come into her heart. She wanted to, and it was amazing. I never knew how it would feel. I cried. Grandma sort of over heard our conversation and I'm pretty sure she teared up too.

Die To Self

The Bible verse on our desk top today is Psalm 73:26.

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

When I think about this verse, I really wonder why I've been following the flesh all these years. I have been following God. But have I really put Him first? Am I really doing all that He's asked me to do? I know for sure that both questions are a "no". He's never ask anything impossible of me. Why does it seem impossible?

Something my SIL said has stuck with me for a few weeks. Someone said they "wanted" something and for some reason that started some people saying something that they wanted, myself included. Then, my SIL said, "I want to not want". I'm sure as she said it she didn't expect to impact anyone, but she did. That's what I want too! I'm so tired of thinking of all the things I want and not getting them. These are not needs that I'm talking about, I have everything I need, and more. That's the point. Why can't I look at what I have and be thankful to God for everything! I know he cares about what I want, but I'm sure he gets tired of hearing all of our "wants" when we have so much. I want to look at my life and see how blessed I am. See everything I have, instead of everything I "want".

Lord, show me how to not "want".